New York....

Well I have been really busy. I left without getting to tell anyone. And I came back without even seeing alot of people.

Yup I went to New York. It was a hurried thing. My in-laws were going. They asked me if I wanted to come. And I didnt even think twice. I knew mom wasn't feeling that well. But its been like a year now since shes been sick enough to go to the hospital or need me all the time. So I made sure I took her to the doc. Got all her med. And left her with clear instructions to call 911 even if she thinks she missed a heart beat.

I packed my bags, told my sis to pack hers. Cause I really thinks she need to get out of the house more often and socialize (well I cant say a bit more cause she dont socialize at all). I left my bro to take care of my mom. Also left my husband behind. And off we went.

From the moment we got there. I was expecting the worst. My sis was already complaining about going home. And I couldn't send her alone. I wanted to have fun. Thats why I went. To remember what its like to feel responsibility free. (Yeah now I know thats not possible).

Anyways when I first saw my cuz it was hard to believe she had three children. She is half my size. And for the first couple of days I couldn't help staring she was like a skeleton. And I have to say up to the day I left she was on me about my fat that some bones need to show. And now I know there are alot of skinny people out there who are all into the skeleton look. But they need to understand some people like me especially like to have some meat for cushion especially.

Besides am not overweight.

Anyways back to the trip. It was so much fun, well at first. We went to the beach, shopping, weddings, had a bbq. We also stayed home alone and played with her kids. She has twin babies. Two girls. I keep dreaming of them every night since I got home.

Now I feel like having children of my own........ (but then I think of the whole big belly thing, and the pain, and the getting up early, and the pain, and the stretch marks (yeah am not falling for the whole beauty mark thing), and the obligation for the rest of my life thing, and the pain) So yeah honestly speaking I dont know if I can give up my selfish ways. I mean I dont even get up in the morning to feed myself.

I seriously admire and respect all dedicated mothers in the world, especially mine.

Well am going to post up pics another day. All in all my trip was wonderful. New York is not my kinda town. But I always believe in "Home is where the heart is", and the heart is where the family is. I have lots of luving family there. And at times I even felt like I was back in Guyana. I met lots of new people and made lots of new friends. Yeah you actually see alot of people there. Unlike here in Canada.

Anyways while I was in NY, my mom got sick and was admitted to the hospital for Pneumonia. I was really worried. But my husband assured me she was getting the best care, and he was there for her everyday. I came back earlier than I wanted. But thankfully my mom is much better. This was actually my sec. trip ever away from her.
I remember the days when I would get sick when she is leaving. Now its the opposite. I guess its all in the circle of life.

I left my sister in NY to spend out her summer vacation or maybe she might come back before August. For her birthday. (Either way I so envy her right now).

I may start work tomorrow or something not sure. Anyways... got to run right now... hope all is well with all...